heart.
Hello people,
My name is Su-Yen.
Or I could also be Yennie or Yen.
I am seventeen going on a hundred.
I like long walks and country sides.
I like the smell of rain and trees.
This is my blog, Though I'm not sure what it's actually for.
Maybe I want attention. Like yay! x)
No seriously, maybe I do.
Thursday, 14 January 2010!
LAMENTED AT; 1:19 pm
I know how to be fine when I'm not.
It's a skill and blessing. :)
you know you are in deep when you realize no matter how much you fight it, you will always can't help but love someone. Despite telling yourself that it's not good for you and thinking of the consequences time and time again, you just can't stop.
You know it's in deep when your pride is hurt and it goes against what you would normally say or do and you do care- just, not enough to mind. or if you do mind, it' not enough for you to change things.
You know you love someone when you're prepared to face the worst situations and accept the circumstances for what they are without the sugar coating or pretty packaging on the outside.
I've always wondered why people bother loving someone who will never love them back. That person is obviously not worth your time if he or she can't appreciate you for who you are and take you for granted. But what if, he does- just not enough and you can't justify it. You can't prove it. You get a glimpse every now and then but before you get suspicious, everything is normal? But through it all... Even with your battered pride and everything you fight for, this person, you think, is worth it.
Do we delude ourselves with such fairy tales?
Is it a choice we make that will decide the outcome? Or is the outcome already pre-decided.
That puts you in a rather precarious situation though, you are at a forked road where you can either choose to move on or keep going. if you had a logical no-nonsense mind, you'd most probably be able to make that decision albeit the heart ache.
I've not made my choice. I'm afraid to make one and hesitant for the other. Until then it is limbo..
And perhaps through this entry, I've just been trying to find a more flowery way of framing the situation. perhaps it is just that simple, but our minds feel better if we write about it in a more complicated manner so as to justify the time spent thinking of it. A simple narration of the scenario would seem rather primitive to worry over.
Do we write things down to get them out of our heads? So that we feel like this burden atop our minds disappears once we do? Or do we just want the world's sympathy so we can carry on with whatever we might be doing without feeling guilty about being down when everyone's merry.
And it's okay if you have go away
Oh just remember the telephone works both ways
And if I never ever hear them ring
If nothing else I'll think the bells inside
Have finally found you someone else and that's okay
Cause I'll remember everything you sang
Cause you and I both loved.
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