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She has a million things to say but has writer's block most of the time.




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Hello people,
My name is Su-Yen.
Or I could also be Yennie or Yen.
I am seventeen going on a hundred.
I like long walks and country sides.
I like the smell of rain and trees.
This is my blog, Though I'm not sure what it's actually for.
Maybe I want attention. Like yay! x)
No seriously, maybe I do.

My parents left to Bangkok. Just when i thought I couldn't get any lonelier. .__.

I've been spending my time replaying and replaying Hey Jude. I swear it's going to knock Lucky off my playlist SOON. Somehow I never get sick of it.



I've also been addicted to Ballads. I love it that there's so much more to a song than just a pretty tune. Ballads mirror how real people feel. The tune being happy and catchy but the lyrics plunging into the hard reality of life. It's like how sometimes we put on a happy face to fool the people around us who don't really care, but deep down inside we hurt and feel alone.


One of the saddest ballads I've ever heard. Don't be fooled by the music.

There are happy ones too. :)

Excuse the Beatles craze.

& of course,



Have a nice day. (:

I want to curl up with a good book. =(
I want to trust and not be let down. I want to hope and be optimistic. I want to care and not feel judged. I want to be myself and not be picked on.I want to love the world. if only it'll just let me. I want to feel and not have to regret. I want to love and be loved in return, because I'm still holding on to the edge. I don't know how else to say any of this.
I guess we all want a lot of things.
I'm sorry.
night, world.

It's times like these you realize who your real friends are. The ones who actually talk to you because they think you're a great person and not just cause' they have ulterior motives. My whole life I've been a people pleaser and that has been my mistake.I tell people so many times to not feel bad and not feel sorry for themselves. I tell them to get up and move on, to ignore the things happening around them and put on a smile. It always seems so easy, so simple. Like knowing exactly what to do but not being able to do it myself.

In a world where everything is disguised and where we all think that we are always right, it's no wonder we all have pride, ego and self-righteousness. I try and i try, I remind myself everyday that I shouldn't be like that. I should walk the talk and try to stay on the narrow path. I put faith in situations when i know I'll be let down. I trust people I know I shouldn't. I hurt easily though it doesn't seem like it. I hate being tossed around and discarded when and as you like, like I'm a flame you can direct back and forth, light and relight.

I'm sorry if you all feel that way, but I want to. And if you think you are above everything, please go get a life and don't bother even talking to me in the first place. Don't judge me and make assumptions about my life and how I feel when you don't know a single thing about me to begin with.

Stop being high and mighty and above yourselves and tell me what i should or should not be doing. There is nothing wrong with the person and I respect him for being the person he is. He doesn't pretend to be someone he's not and he's no pushover even though you think you can push him around. Maybe you should try it some time.

& despite what you may think, I am NOT trying to prove a point. I am NOT being all noble and charitable. I am NOT that nice and so you should get off my case and accept it.

Maybe it's time we all think about ourselves and pull ourselves back down to Earth. Then maybe we'd realize what monsters we've really become- how nowadays we find joy in belittling someone and self proclaiming ourselves better than everyone else.

And as for some of you around me, stop pretending you know me. Stop pretending you like me. Stop assuming you know what goes on in my mind and pretending you know what i'm talking about. If you really wanted to get to know me, you'd put some genuine effort into it. & if you have already been trying; you should know i can smell a rat a mile away.

Note: shall blog about the 30-hour famine in the near future.



For the very first time, I think I'm actually scared of parent-teachers.

It's not really my fault Physics is so boring and that i simply tune off whenever he talks about electricity related chapters and anything else for that matter.

and it's really nothing to do with me when in addmaths I just don't understand anything because I've missed so many lessons (not that I'm complaining).

and lastly, it's really out of my control when in english all we do is grammar and lit where by we are spoon fed like little kids (again, not complaining) AND all your closest friends are within a 2 metre radius.

Hmmm.

So goes school. :)

disclaimer: Apologies if the contents below seem harsh. No, I'm not racist and i understand that I am generalizing a lot. I know there are lots of smart and intelligent people out there who might share my views or similar ones for that matter.


okay first of all, whatever respect or little optimism i once had for our retarded government and politicians have now been all washed down the drain.

We all thought the polls and the debate between the two languages were just for show, but apparently the point goes to Bahasa which is now the language maths and science will be taught in.




who freaking cares??? the government is screwing up their own future. I hope BN chokes and dies because they are shooting themselves in the foot. One can't expect change after like what? 5 years of so of switching to english. When originally everything used to be English before Dr. M very stupidly and mistakenly taught of switching it to Bahasa. It's fixing something that's not broken all for the sake of politics.

Seriously they can all die and rot.

from: http://www.forbes.com/feeds/afx/2009/07/08/afx6629558.html

KUALA LUMPUR, Malaysia -- Malaysia announced Wednesday it will abandon the use of English to teach math and science, bowing to protesters who demanded more use of the national Malay language.

Malay will be reinstated in state-funded schools starting in 2012 because teaching in English caused academic results in those subjects to slip, Education Minister Muhyiddin Yassin said.

The news comes after months of high-profile demonstrations by politicians and linguists, especially from the ethnic Malay majority, who say a six-year-old policy of using English undermines their struggle to modernize their mother tongue.

I understand that they want to achieve unity among the people by making a language uniform. But you also have to think about practicality and face the fact that Bahasa is not globally recognized. you don't want to keep spoon-feeding the lazy people and giving them opportunities they're too lazy to work themselves. Don't get me wrong, nothing wrong with bahasa except for it's lack of recognision in the world. malaysia's a tiny spec on the globe, and i dare say bahasa is NOT EVEN CLOSE to competing with any of the most used langauges in the world. in fact, so many words in bahasa are BORROWED from english by simply switching a few vowels and consonants around. At least have your own language and don't be a copy-cat.

On top of that, are they that damn stupid to not realize that it takes at least a good 10 years or more for the teaching of subjects in English to improve? What has to happen is that the generation learning everything in English now has got to have the time to grow up and pursue a carreer in education. Then wouldn't they automatically have a better grasp of the language itself? Should they not look at things in the long run and not be so stubborn about their pride?

We get you, the British exploited you a good 52 years ago. you suffered. you faught. you sacrificed. Booohoo. GET OVER IT. But now, you're still equally spoilt rotten and spoon-fed till your fat and refuse to get off you high horse.

I have nothing to say.

This is why politics is a waste of time.

*Edit* i will try to recollect and regroup my thoughts better another day. I'm just too worked up to care about making sense.