My name is Su-Yen
Or I could also be Yennie or Yen.
I am seventeen going on a hundred.
I like long walks and country sides.
I like the smell of rain and trees.
This is my blog, Though I'm not sure what it's actually for.
Maybe I want attention. Like yay! x)
No seriously, maybe I do.
Thursday, 31 January 2008!
LAMENTED AT; 2:41 pm
Intellectual thought of the day.
MissTeng: Carbon dioxide is very solullable in water So, what do you get if the carbon dioxide diffuses into the water in the cell?Ki Yip: A soft drink? o_o
My brain really hurts from all the work they jam into our brains. I really really really need to get out of the house. I haven't been to a proper mall since last year! or early late last year! I'm missing those squeaky floors and shiny glass displays with expensive stuff behind them.
Form 3 feels like heaven now. =(
I don't want to be 16!! In three weeks time. HAHA, ironic isn't it? I got an essay on that too. -.-
"You will be celebrating your birthday in three weeks, write a letter to your best friend inviting her to you birthday party.
You must include:
1) Telling her about a book your just finished reading.
2) an Apology for your late reply.
3) The actual invitation to your party.
I found the essay way too hilarious. First of all, it's gotta be around the time of my real
birthday, secondly, who on earth writes a letter to a friend to invite him/her to your party? Helooohhh..
we have phones now, or even, if she's your best friend, wouldn't you see her in school? As if he/she lives in Timbaktu
or something. And if that was the case you wouldn't be inviting her to your birthday party right? Flying back from there outta cost a bomb no? Oh well, I shan't complain. Essays are fun if you have the mood and patience. (:
I'm still going bonkers over juggling my time. sigh. I call it the OAK
syndrome. Standing for, OverAchieversKiasu
syndrome. Don't try to hide! I know I'm not the only one with it!
It's speaking to me I tell you! x)
Sunday, 27 January 2008!
LAMENTED AT; 2:18 pm
I hate to say this.. But i have... into Edward Cullen's
expected trap. Expected because he's not the first fictional character I've ooh-ed and ahh-ed
about. He comes second to Zane
in 'Pretties'. fiinnee
, maybe i don't have much resistance to temptation, and it's my fault for getting started. but aghh. Man, I hate fictional characters whom are soo soo
It's going to be the death of me I tell you!
Edward makes me so emo.
emo emo emo.
I could keep going, but it seems like a sad thing to be obsessed about.
My fault also for being so attached to emotions and feelings in general. It's useful for relating with people, but sometimes, It just gets me so wound out about how they feel if this and that happened. That is why, I avoid intense and deep books which describe every single feeling and rush. Twilight
being the perfect example, along with the whole uglies/pretties/specials
series.And as hard as it is to believe this is even affecting me so much, I can't help but ever wonder if i'll ever find someone like that. Sure, there are candidates, (gosh, now it sounds like i'm picking a politician. xD) But like I said, I'm in denial a lot of times and I can't handle the mental strain it would potentially bring me. Or could I?
There are just so many things I'd like to talk about, or share.. But i can't help but feel that this year, I've been boxed up and can not explain how i feel to anyone. There's not security blanket anymore. Maybe that's just what I'm looking for. A security blanket.
Ugh. Enough thoughts, but damn, sometimes you just need to let it all out. and now its here in my very public blog. whooppee. x)
My tre important #1 advice to all of you out there..
read any books or watch any movies with anything to do with love, if you think you are deprived of it for now. Be warned! and be patient. I still have faith that one day it'll come, to everyone of us. =)
Friday, 25 January 2008!
LAMENTED AT; 2:58 pm
Damn! school just gets more retarded and more retarded
every time. I mean, I see no logical explanation for the stupid rules they keep enforcing.
Issues, issues, issues...
lockers are for student's personnel uses right?
. Thats what I thought, with the general rule of course that banned items and xx stuff should not be allowed. Of course.But not allowing us to share lockers?
What kind of rule is that? It's bad enough we have to pay for this facility, but they have to make sharing lockers the crime of the century.
As logically as my mind sees it, We rent
the lockers. SO, whatever the manner we use it, it still should not concern the school. So whether we decide to share a locker or not, it shouldn't be their business right? So say, I choose to put X
here. Both X and Y are not banned items, and they fit in the locker. their going to pinalyse us for that?
Who are they to tell us that we can't share?
After all, caring IS
No homework in the library??
Whether this rule is going t be enforced or not, I don't know. Don't you think this rule is also a weee bit whacked out? The school gives us a huge homework load to begin with. And they expect us to finish it in a period of time. But have they thought about the people who really CAN'T
finish it at home for specific reasons?
So what? going to the library during lunch period to finish off some of our homework is a crime
now lah? Lets see... It's not like their trying to free up space
. Because as far as I'm concerned, there are still plenty of empty chairs around.
And it's not like we're too noisy
. I mean, hardly anyone goes to the library to read, As a matter of factly speaking. So what, their going to chase us out of the library just because some of us whisper and ask each other about work?
As far as I'm concerned, I'm quite done with telling people wms is a good school and blablabla
. for one, I've heard it enough times from Matthews
almost every assembly, and two, their just living in the past. I mean, get updated! people are inventing flying cars, huge machine guns, and the internet is the number 1 way of spreading word now. It's time they embraced to change and had a fresh new intake of what school life is all about.
That's right. NOT j
ust academics and giving the school a good name
and crap. NOT
just insisting that the students become lifeless pieces of rocks and robots
, parading around the school with shiny foreheads and red faces
bombarding them with expectations and limitations, and certainly NOT
shutting off anyone who has a good suggestion to make, or even feedback.
Because when it comes down to it, It's just pride
. And as we all know, (probably from one of Matthew's/Goh's loong speaches)
Pride comes before fall.
And this is what will happen if we don't take a new look on things. I want to be in an active, outspoken, liberal, and democratic school.
Don't we all? where creativity is welcomed in EVERY
way, form and aspect, and where criticism is taken constructively
to improve things.
And while it's okay to worry about the reputation of the school... Have they ever thought of thinking about the students more and putting themselves in our shoes? If we were all happy and contented with the school, loved the principals and teachers, do you think we would be breaking rules and rebelling?
I think not.
Monday, 21 January 2008!
LAMENTED AT; 11:07 am
The world needs more time!!
Yes, I have not blogged in a long while cause of my build up of homework. Geese, i just missed 2 days man!! -.-
This year is going to be crazy for me. I mean really. I'm staying back from school officially everyday from next week onwards till 4 or 5. All this because of all the meetings and extra coco stuff i have to do. or rather, WANT to do.
And Oh the horror! on top of coming home late from school, i have two 2 hour tuition classes on specific week days and two music lessons on the other two days! that leaves just one day of coming-home-late-no-tuition days!!
Please don't forget the amount of homework and projects I will have to do, PLUS all the theory homework I'm currently lagging behind all because i have no time to finish. I seriously think i have no life sometimes. It's depressing to think that your week ahead of you is just about due dates and facts!! Oh wait, i left out the hours, or no, minutes I need to practice.
and... If addmaths wasn't so important I'd gladly change it for english Lit. Damn i hate those numbers. have i mentioned how much I deslike numbers?
Anyways, I thought I'd take a break today. And I promised some insite on the mysterious place i disappeared to for 5 days.
On the way there! =D
The villa we stayed in was really awesome! there was even a private pool. =D And the rooms were so huge. it even had a tv room, a biig dining table and a fax room!
And we went to see a temple by the beach. The scenery was awesome and the breeze smelt so good. There was a section we couldn't go to though, cause that part of the temple was in the middle of the see. You can only get there during a low tide.
So yeah, it was a great trip! =D I don't think i'll be blogging much anymore, So i'll see ya'll when i see you!
Thursday, 10 January 2008!
LAMENTED AT; 2:09 pm
So now what?
I haven't been blogging for a while. Mostly cause the school works a mountain
on my shoulders and it's been raining pretty heavily these few days. Thunder and internet connections don't go too well together.
On a follow up to my emo
post, I think things are starting to fall into place again. Sure we've all missed the last year, but if you keep looking back, how are you gonna move forward and appreciate the great things in life? :D you might even be too stupid to see some things waving right in front of your face.
So yes! the answer is, I'm getting happier and happier every day with the new class.
Or more like getting used to.
The trick is to not compare cause comparison can make you loose your mind.
And omg! I can't believe I can actually say it this year... "I'm 16 this year!!!"
=D I know i sound jakunted, but still. I mean, don't tell me you didn't watch movies last time where everyone seemed to be 16. Their lives seemed so interesting back then, and I honestly never thought it would ever come in my life time. It's not like I'm looking forward to it
, cause who on earth wants to grow up so fast? But still! You're only 16 once in your life so whats wrong with gloating bout it? :p
Anyways, I'll be missing in action till Monday
cause I'm off to the wonderful land of palm trees, nude sun bathers and of course food! Yeh, Bali
lah. Everyone seems to be going there no? hhahahaa! Anyway, I know my cough*
friends in class will be sweethearts
and help me get my handouts and homework for me. ;) I have faith in ya'll!
So I shall blog about that when I get home. =D In the mean time, I'll enjoy my last holiday till i sink myself into an endless cycle of work that's gonna come my way soon. seriously lah, on top of new tuition
, new classes
, new schedules
, new friends
, and new people
, I'm also taking a triple
explosion of music exams
Theory, practical, cello. Gosh, I'm going to die already.
But yeap, I'm contented with what I have now. The class is coming along just fine and everything seems to be in tact for now.
heres to a great year ahead! =D
Saturday, 5 January 2008!
LAMENTED AT; 4:05 pm
Those days...At first I was wondering where to post this, but whatthehell. It is my blog and I shall post whatever I jolly like. xD
It's just sunk in. I don't know why, but its hard for me to adapt to a new class. Technically speaking, I really can't relate much to anyone there. I mean, Besides Zheng, There's really really no one. And to begin with. I hate to be a sour puss about this, but i guess sometimes you just need to let it out. I was prepared for this, it's just that somehow, I didn't quite expect it to happen so drastically.
The guys are okay though. They keep things going, but sitting way in front is a one way ticket to isolation. I know, complain complain is all I do, and you've probably heard me rant online. But what I'm really most afraid of is letting everyone else drift away. it's not too bad if you have new people to fill that empty void with, but the question is, what if you don't?
I'm just angry at myself for being so caught up in this. so yeah, emo moment here, excuse me.
My biggest question is... Who've I got to talk to if everyone's found their place and I haven't? When moving on is the plainest thing to do, but I'm just not ready? I found my security last year. And to abandon it like that is just too hard for me. I'm probably being all drama queen now, but honestly that's how I feel now. and it sucks.
Friday, 4 January 2008!
LAMENTED AT; 9:08 am
Security Blanket Alert!
They reshuffled our classes. THEY FREAKING RESHUFFLED EVERYONE!
aggh. But what's wrong right? new faces, new friends, new class rooms, and new subjects! Is that not enough?
Aiyooh. I'm not complaining about the new class... rather I just miss the old one. =( Plus i hate sitting in front. Not enough distractions to keep me going. garh, oh weelll.
for the wonderful notebook
! A collage of my favorite things on my notebook to kick start the day is completely happy-making.
=D And best of all, it's totally environmentally friendly!
which makes you a friend of nature, and always a friend of mine. ^^
Boo to those of you who threw away all your exercise books without tearing out all the empty pages first. -.-" sigh. I'm wound up now. garrh.
And I also declare that reading chic lits/romance/fictional
books are bad. ahem* Because it sucks up your time and makes you drool over the fictional fantasy guy who always knows the right things to say. REAL LIFE IS NOT LIKE THAT!
And yeah, a word of advice, NEVER
read a book with the above categories when you're feeling lonely and lovesick. Heartburn is a bad start to the year.
I just really miss 3K. =( What's wrong with wanting that same sense of security somewhere else?