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Hello people,
My name is Su-Yen.
Or I could also be Yennie or Yen.
I am seventeen going on a hundred.
I like long walks and country sides.
I like the smell of rain and trees.
This is my blog, Though I'm not sure what it's actually for.
Maybe I want attention. Like yay! x)
No seriously, maybe I do.

One moment you feel like flying and the next you're in the dirt again, wondering why you have to go through what you go through and for what sake you go through it for. College applications are one thing and well, your own selfish agendas (need not be bad) are another.


If you think I'm trying to arrive at a point right here, you're wrong. Of course we all write things with hidden and metaphorical meanings, but what if you just let the thought sit and stir in your brain a bit? maybe some things don't mean to mean anything unless the time really propels you to think something of it.


back to the point I am trying not to prove. We only have one life and while most of us like spending it impressing other people, maybe we've overlooked the real goal in life - to be happy and satisfied with our time here. We do everything we do either because we're truly passionate about it, we HAVE to do it, it is a stepping stone to something greater, or we just want to prove to the world we are capable of doing something.


Maybe the capable of doing something part has something to do with confidence, in which I conclude is a worthy enough cause, but not enough to kill yourself over.



For instance, I absolutely cannot stand numbers.

But why do I put myself through it?

a) I was too stupid to drop addmaths even though i could have in the beginning
b) I want to prove to everyone I can handle it.
c) Because I want to see for myself what exactly makes it so scary for other people.


See, even for a decision I absolutely cannot understand i made, i still see so many reasons why i shouldn't have dropped it, and that's enough for me. I hate numbers but hey, some things you got to go through with because you have to. It makes you a better person, blablablablabla.

And as for me, I can't wait to move on with my life. School's somehow become a place where learning is a process and all the formalities we go through seem even more pointless than maths. Sure, you could call everything you go through which you see no point in and tough character building, but you got to draw the line somewhere.