heart.
Hello people,
My name is Su-Yen.
Or I could also be Yennie or Yen.
I am seventeen going on a hundred.
I like long walks and country sides.
I like the smell of rain and trees.
This is my blog, Though I'm not sure what it's actually for.
Maybe I want attention. Like yay! x)
No seriously, maybe I do.
Tuesday, 14 April 2009!
LAMENTED AT; 10:49 pm
I am very worried about the relay and it's not funny.
I'll try my best, you know I will. But I'm damn shit scared. I seriously am. I don't want to let people down. I'm afraid of the expectations. I know I don't really have the physical condition to do well. So I'm sorry. But I've really tried. And that day, I promise I'll give it every last bit of strength I have.
And I have faith in our gymrama. We've worked so hard for it, and I have faith in it. It's so hard to be positive about something all the time, but you know you just have to believe in it. So i hope my kids do well. cause the first thing they have to realize is that it's all in the mind, and nothing else.
I like all my kids! But they have to believe in themselves. :) And even if we don't win, that's fine. cause all the other houses are good. Very good.
And I shall leave it at that.
hahaa,
ChengYee says she learns from my blog. YAY! my blog has a purpose!
bwahahaha. :D
I CANNOT WAIT FOR SPORTS TO BE OVER.
Why do we worry about such remedial things like sports day?! WHYY??? Why put ourselves through all the pressure and andraneline and scary stress and worry?! WHYYY. So unecessary.
SIGH.
Friday, 10 April 2009!
LAMENTED AT; 8:22 pm
Hey Ho, What'd you know? :)
You know what? I don't really know what my blog is for. It's like there are so many types of blogs out there now. From thoughtful ones to emo ones to entertaining ones to factual ones. I was just thinking. Where does that leave mine?
nah, don't worry, I feel no need to be classified under any of those categories. But still, it's very intriguing to think about. Where our thoughts come from are such a mystery. Have you ever wondered which type of chromosome or cerebral fluid or chemical reaction makes us think the way we think? Is it by complete chance we think the way we do or does our brain fluid just happen to produce emotions and thoughts which are beyond comprehension sometimes?
Hmmm...
I think i have been doing a lot of light thinking lately. Light as in purposeless thinking. Not worrying, thinking.
One day, I am going to find someone who will ponder upon these mindless thought with me and help put it into perspective with me. :) I will!
So anyway, here is a long quote from a book I've been reading. It's just too freaking hilarious and witty to be left unrecognized. :D
Another thing that got forgotten was the fact that against all probability a sperm whale had suddenly been called into existence several miles above the surface of an alien planet. And since this is not a naturally tenable position for a whale, this poor innocent creature had very little time to come to terms with not being a whale any more. This is a complete record of its thought from the moment it began its life till the moment it ended. Ah. . .! What's happening? it thought. Er excuse me, who am I? Hello? Why am I here? What's my purpose in life? What do I mean by who am I? Calm down, get a grip now . . . oh! this is an interesting sensation what is it? It's sort of . . . yawning, tingling sensation in my . . . my . . . well i suppose I'd better start finding names for things if i want to make any headway in what for the sake of what i shall call an argument i shall call the world, so let's call it my stomach. Good. Oooh, it's getting quite strong. And hey, what about this whistling roaring sound going past what I'm suddenly going to call my head? Perhaps i can call that . . . wind! Is that a good name?It'll do . . . perhaps I can find a better name for it later when I've found out what it's for. It must be something very important because there certainly seems to be a hell of a lot of it. Hey! What's this thing? This . . . let's call it a tail - yeah, tail. Hey! I can really thrash it about pretty good can't I? Wow! wow! That feels great! Doesn't seem to achieve very much but I'll probably find out what it's for later on. Now - have I built up any coherent picture of thigns yet? No. Never mind, hey, this is really exciting, so much to find out about, so much to look forward to, I'm qiote dozzy with anticipation. . . Or is it the wind? There really is a lot of that now isn't there? And wow! Hey! Waht's this thing suddenly coming towards me very fast? Very very fast. So big and flat and round, it needs a big wide sounding name like . . . ow . . . ound . . . round . . . ground! That's it! That's a good name - ground! I wonder if it will be friends with me?And the rest, after a sudden wet thud, was silence. 
Whale.if you didn't get that i wouldn't blame you. Cause seriously it feels like the quthor very cleverly wrote a bunch of random things and decided to string them all into one story.
it's like being intelligently lame!
Awesome awesome. :D
Friday, 3 April 2009!
LAMENTED AT; 10:23 pm
Spare me a Minute
Have you ever wondered why we bother writing down our thoughts and daily happenings in our lives on this little peace of blank white space?
Or have you ever wondered why people suffer and track through mud and go through so much just to be happy?
What if happiness was a state of mind? then wouldn't going through all that pain not be worth the end result? Why can't we all just be happy to begin with and not have hard times remind us that we actually are?
Why do we do this to ourselves? Knowing the outcome might or might not be good?
& have you ever felt so confined in a small corner that you know you're bursting to come out but just can't do it? That for the life of you, you're just trapped and nothing you do seems to be working?
Or have you ever had immense blind faith in something that when people tell you it's good to question it to reassure yourself, you just don't do it because well- you CHOOSE to have immense blind faith in something and reasoning with that wouldn't be immense blind faith anymore.
What if in the world, there were no rights and wrongs? And the only answer to all the questions were to just accept BOTH the "rights" and "wrongs"? To understand that both are keeping the delicate balance in a situation with us pushing against it making it unstable?
Have you ever felt like you don't know why you are emotionally attached to a person even though you have absolutely no reason to be?
Or maybe felt like everything in your life is mediocre and that everything you feel is completely surreal and that maybe you might just be making all of it up by yourself with the hope of self pity.
have you ever wondered why we even bother since one day, the world we live in will be reduced to absolutely nothing. All the architecture, history, art, philosophy on earth will one day be completely destroyed in just a blink of the eye? What makes us so sure we'll last forever?
Has it ever occurred to you that at this very second, someone somewhere in the world might be thinking the EXACT same thing as you?
And have you wondered if anyone will one day understand exactly what you're going through and if you'd ever get to meet this person someday, have coffee and chat. What are the odds of you MEETING that person and that person speaking the language you're speaking right now?
What are the odds of that huh? (;
Yeah.
I'm tired, i know.
love. <3
Whale.