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Hello people,
My name is Su-Yen.
Or I could also be Yennie or Yen.
I am seventeen going on a hundred.
I like long walks and country sides.
I like the smell of rain and trees.
This is my blog, Though I'm not sure what it's actually for.
Maybe I want attention. Like yay! x)
No seriously, maybe I do.

Tuesday, 2 February 2010!

LAMENTED AT; 7:29 PM

Australia in a Nutshell

Hi Everyone, My first post from the land down under. Everything's alright here.. Nothing's really new except maybe the weather which is really moody. I'm currently staying in my uncle's place. It's near the beach!

in Australia, life starts when you are 18. Well for me anyway.. The Uni won't allow me to stay at the residential college till I'm 18 so that means I've got to homestay from the 8th (when my term starts) till the 21st. I was originally going to move in on the 22nd but the reception lady told me that they had a dinner on the 21st and orientation on the 22nd I didn't want to miss.

Yeah, So I'll be spending my birthday moving out of homestay lady's house...

The people over here are really nice. The sales girls chat with you and ask you about your day. They give you big smiles and are soo helpful. The public transport is awesome too! You can go anywhere anytime and EVERYTHING is right on time.

Went to see my uni/college too. The international college is not too bad, it's a building with a yellow entrace and there is quite a friendly feel to it. kind of like a foreign primary school. We explored the campus (uni campus). They have a moat and ducks but my cousin said the water has two strains of syphilis. Don't touch the water! The Uni center is called Agora (Ring a bell anyone?) It's the ancient greece public open space used for assemblies and markets.

The city is as usual hustling and bustling. We mad a stop to Melbourne U which is in the heart of everything. I think I'm bias but i like my duck and moats and trees. :) Oh, my residential college is brown! It looks pretty good.

So to sum it all up. i will be living in three places for these next few weeks. from now till the 7th I will be in Sandringham with my mum (uncles place) from the 8th till 20th i will be with the home stay lady, and FINALLy on the 21st I can move to my residential college in la trobe!

Pheww.. Just thinking about it makes me tired. I have so much stuff to take now. It's slowly building up now that I am buying all my toiletries and electrical appliances. I never realised how heavy and bulky jackets and winter wear can be! Now I will be equipped with a big suitcase, a small hand carry bag and a big box of stuff.

Anyway, here are some pictures of stuff. :)

Imy yun. :(

If we were older.

Taylors.

Thanks for sending me off. :)

Kebab's in Agora! haha. We are such tourists.

and I left my heart at home.

That's all! Shall be updating my blog about things here so stay tuned. :)

Miss all of you at home, have fun at college people!

love,
Yennie.

Saturday, 30 January 2010!

LAMENTED AT; 5:17 PM

Leaving On a Jet Plane

Dearest friends,

You must have read like a million goodbye notes by now, but I feel like i need to officially say this to all of you.

Thank you for always being there for me and making sec school amazing. Somehow I always thought sec school would be so much drama, tears and would have lots of cat fights and boy troubles.

The truth is all the girl friends i've made have been more than just nice. We get along so well and we are our own support system. We might not all be close but we trust each other and confide to whomever we see. I'm so thankful that I've been able to grow up in this environment.. Not many people are as blessed.

And to the guys I've been around, ya'll are a terrific bunch and I'm not just saying it. Even my parents realise this and they all see great things in you. No one's perfect, but the great thing is all of you try your best to be good people.

looking back at all this, I honestly don't think I've deserved half the things you've done for me prior to me leaving. I wasn't expecting anything big at all... i guess it just comes from years of being so quiet and unoticed. i just want you to know that I appreciate all the effort.

Thank You XiaoYun for the notes, the hugs. you'll always be my best friend no matter what. We don't need words remember? :)

Thank you Wai for always listening to me when I am on my rambling modes. Thank you for dragging me out of that pit of depression last year when I thought i was distant from everyone. And the note, the presents, EVERYTHING.

Thank you SueAnn for the photoframe and the really nice note. I'll miss you so much package half.

Tan Li Li, thank you for always being there to listen and reason with me. OH AND FOR FUN FACTS. and hat!! I like, its soft. You'll do just fine here dear. :)

For Jo, Dan, Tam Cynthia, Suyin and everyone who said something in the video scrap book. It made me tear so badd... Like, yeah. THANK YOU JO FOR DROPPING IT OFF AND PUTTING IT TOGETHER.

Tammy Lim!! lake club days!! :)

OH and ALEX HOOI, thank you for picking me up and makan-ing with me, for the advice and for the assurance and the blogpost!

Sighh, so many other people to thank. THANK YOU. THANK YOU. THANK YOU. haha okay I'm getting very nostalgic now, can you tell?

But yeaahh, I'll be alright over there... I'm just so overwhelmed by everyone saying goodbye. I love you guys. I don't deserve it!!!

SHALL MISS YOU.

OHH, I will still be blogging so you haven't heard the end of me. you may not see me in 9 months but my blog will still be alive. Check for updates here.

ADD ME ON SKYPE!!

chiasuyen

So i guess this will be my last post from KL ( in 9 months)

Will tell you how it is over there, soon. :)

lots of love.

Yennie

Friday, 29 January 2010!

LAMENTED AT; 1:03 AM

Credits to Xiao Yun who very patiently helped me change my font size for me so it is more readable. Thank you Xiao Yun!

I will blog soon... Yeah, definitely gotta do that before i leave. Tomorrow. :)

Monday, 18 January 2010!

LAMENTED AT; 8:56 PM

I think I've figured out why I go an hiatus every once in a while.

it turns out, its not really random. I realised i stop blogging when there is something bothering me or occupying my very blank (because no college) mind.

So maybe, perhaps until i get things sorted out our my feelings and emotions back on track, I will probably not really be blogging.

But I'd never close this blog. No matter how depressing or pointless my posts get, I'll always have my faithful chocolatecoatedbattery. you just gotta wait for the posts worth reading. :)

Never ever till I die will I change my blog! Maybe one day when I'm old and rickety I will reread all my posts and reminisce about how things were before. I want to always be reminded of the state of mind I was once in embarrassing ones and all.

Labels: blog, Jude

Thursday, 14 January 2010!

LAMENTED AT; 1:19 PM

I know how to be fine when I'm not.

It's a skill and blessing. :)

you know you are in deep when you realize no matter how much you fight it, you will always can't help but love someone. Despite telling yourself that it's not good for you and thinking of the consequences time and time again, you just can't stop.

You know it's in deep when your pride is hurt and it goes against what you would normally say or do and you do care- just, not enough to mind. or if you do mind, it' not enough for you to change things.

You know you love someone when you're prepared to face the worst situations and accept the circumstances for what they are without the sugar coating or pretty packaging on the outside.

I've always wondered why people bother loving someone who will never love them back. That person is obviously not worth your time if he or she can't appreciate you for who you are and take you for granted. But what if, he does- just not enough and you can't justify it. You can't prove it. You get a glimpse every now and then but before you get suspicious, everything is normal? But through it all... Even with your battered pride and everything you fight for, this person, you think, is worth it.

Do we delude ourselves with such fairy tales?

Is it a choice we make that will decide the outcome? Or is the outcome already pre-decided.

That puts you in a rather precarious situation though, you are at a forked road where you can either choose to move on or keep going. if you had a logical no-nonsense mind, you'd most probably be able to make that decision albeit the heart ache.

I've not made my choice. I'm afraid to make one and hesitant for the other. Until then it is limbo..

And perhaps through this entry, I've just been trying to find a more flowery way of framing the situation. perhaps it is just that simple, but our minds feel better if we write about it in a more complicated manner so as to justify the time spent thinking of it. A simple narration of the scenario would seem rather primitive to worry over.

Do we write things down to get them out of our heads? So that we feel like this burden atop our minds disappears once we do? Or do we just want the world's sympathy so we can carry on with whatever we might be doing without feeling guilty about being down when everyone's merry.

And it's okay if you have go away
Oh just remember the telephone works both ways
And if I never ever hear them ring
If nothing else I'll think the bells inside
Have finally found you someone else and that's okay
Cause I'll remember everything you sang
Cause you and I both loved.

Labels: Jude

Thursday, 24 December 2009!

LAMENTED AT; 2:29 PM

Christmas Eve

I have decided that the worst chore you could possibly do is to vacuum. I hate vacuuming! The wires get stuck and the water gets disgusting and you don't get the same gratification as when you say, mop the floor and can actually visibly SEE what you've mopped and enjoy the gentle squeak of the clean floor after you are done.

Vacuuming is like sucking up invisible dust through a retarded nozzle. you don't feel the difference and the floor feels as grimy as it was before. It took my like 10 minutes to untangle the wire to get around the sitting room which is crowded with furniture! When I move out, I am going to pick an appartment/house with as little floor space as I can. That, or I'm hiring a maid.

I hate vacuuming!!

Luckily though my mum sensed my pain and offered to vacuum if I would mop. So mop I did!

It still feels like everyone is away somewhere... away away away...

I hope you don't mind that I put down in words,

How wonderful life is. :)

Sunday, 13 December 2009!

LAMENTED AT; 6:24 PM

Important Prom Notice!

So we've gotten the green light for the Box of Dirty Little Secrets from the prom committee. Here's how it's supposed to work.

First, you come to prom with a typed/written confession on a small piece of paper. You may sign it anonymously or if you really want to, leave a name.

Upon registration at 6.30PM on the 18th, feel free to drop that little piece of paper in the secret box. Yes, it's THAT simple.

Fear not! If you suddenly have the urge to confess something on the night itself and are not prepared, you may write it down with the stationary provided and drop it into the little box upon registering if you fancy.

NOTE: NO TAKE BACKS. if you drop it into the box, consider your dirty little secret exposed, literally.

Confessions and dirty little secrets will be read during prom. Hold on, sit tight, and don't forget your paper bags! (In case people figure out the secret's yours. )

P.S: This is NOT compulsory so don't feel obliged. you can of course sit back and have a laugh at other people's expanse. Though, we all are good ex wesleyans who take pride and participate in such events. riiggghhhttt? (;

Wishing all of you a very happy day. ;)

Labels: Prom

LAMENTED AT; 1:11 AM

Leaving on a Jetplane

dang it. In the short span of a few days, everyone's leaving the country...

One to Bangkok, one to the UK, another in UK and another to Japan.. :(

Oh well. let go out people!

Labels: solitude